For someone like me, I see love as a sign of affection, (I'm pretty sure that's an obvious for anyone that reads this) yet what I notice, is that when you think you love someone and can see yourself with them, then the next day, you go and meet that someone, you have a hard time picturing THEM because they are right THERE, it gets complicated into my mind when it comes to that,
my question is: Is there truely love for everyone?? Sadly, i've had little faith in my life when it comes to relationships, i see myself as a complicated person who is hard to understand, and when i say that i will elaborate: I can't seem to talk verbaly with big words when i'm with someone, however when it comes to chatting with someone on MSN, FACEBOOK, EBUDDY, Etc. i seem to sound like one gigantic nerd that has this GREAT vocabulary, i don't know why that happens, I guess when people don't see me, i don't get nervous, and that comes when i have a relationship with someone,
Like for example, i don't do PDA (Personal Display of Affection) i do PrvDA (Private Display of Affection), that's one of the things I can't control, i don't like for people to know that i'm dating someone, or anything that the world can critize, especially when there are people that can make my life (and other people miserable), it sucks to see what people can do to each other, so cruely, so without regret and remorse (when that comes to murder and rape, of course.) I can't see myself having some public relationship with someone, to me, it doesn't click with me, and besides......i need my privacy.
But when it comes to being alone with that person and getting that time that you've desired, you get alot of pressure off of you, that's just plain logic, it's simple, if i'm unable to have a public relationship in front of the others, it simply stresses me out. BUT, when it comes to being in your own comfort zone (AKA: Alone with that person that you love.) you get changed immediately.
And besides, there is bound to be people like me (Without the Aspergers) that just want a private relationship. I've always thought before that it was just completely ab-normal that someone would want that.
And when it comes to having someone special in my life, i have none at the momment, what is there to tell if i have nothing?? I do love someone, but is there something that i have to do to get acceptance from this person?? I don't ask someone out via : chatbox, i do it by letter and try have a nice writing (which i don't have that talent........yet) when i do that, i seem to have that something better than just words, when i write my honest feelings, i have that capability to have anything achieved, getting people to understand (somehow THAT works) whatever the case, i see that writing everything down that i want to say, seems better than words.......it's a bad thing for me, because i need to practice speaking and getting those GD social cues!!
But the sooner the better, is what i say sometimes.
Oh well.......nothing changed yet,
Tyler Mac
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Grandfather is gone....and so am I
**sigh**
Writing this, makes me feel cold, I have so many things to catch up, since grandpa's death, (two saturdays ago) i have felt different emotions, Hatred, Depression, Joy, Saddness, and even some that are indescribable , During the time of death of my grandfather, my father has been very sad, i feel very sad aswell, yet i feel bad because i don't share that same feelings as he does, which is of course: Pain, Suffering, Saddness, i feel different, something that is a positive thing, when i heard that my grandfather died, right after work, as soon as i heard the terrible and tragic news, i said to god: - It's not your fault, people say it is, but it's not.''
For the next seven-eight days, i have witness different emotions, met different people that where connected to my grandfather, never have i met someone like him who has the nerve to speak with so many people and change them for who they are. He was kind, generous, funny sense of humour, caring and attentive.
After the funeral, people invited us to his favorite pub, drinks where served, great stories where told about him.
- Goodbye Grandpa." i said as we left the pub with smiles on our faces.
** End**
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Continuing on, Today is my first day of school since i've returned from our ''trip'', I feel depressed lately, even though it may involve Grandpa's death, it took me a frickin while for me to feel the pain, to be honest, i don't see saddness in death, the last funeral i was in, when they buried the person who died, i was sad, yes, but i wasn't sad as in: I'm really upset that this such person does not exist and i can't stand the baring pain of it, so crying has to help me release the pain...." i don't do that.
Moving on, Since i've been staying (in total) of two weeks in Ottawa and Montreal, i've been somewhat School-Sick, and my friends that mean alot to me, i've miss them aswell,
Including someone special, lately i've been frantic about a special someone that meant alot to me, (it's been about close to a month that i HAD these feelings) but unfortunately, people have made proof of evil deeds that the person i love has made.
This person has betrayed me, and backstabbed me, i feel used and mocked behind my back. I fully don't understand how a person that meant alot to me and seemed to have a wonderful friendly relationship has the guts to turn like some pathetic A**hole!!! What is the motivation for that??! has there been some contact with some satanic worshiper and has taken possesion of this person??!!! And the worst part is that i've told her my problems and my life with Aspergers and ADHD, and that just sucks monkey ba**!!! I can't believe that i've done that,
It doesn't seem that this person has the guts to do that, when you just look at them.
Let her go!! i say!!
Tyler Mac
Writing this, makes me feel cold, I have so many things to catch up, since grandpa's death, (two saturdays ago) i have felt different emotions, Hatred, Depression, Joy, Saddness, and even some that are indescribable , During the time of death of my grandfather, my father has been very sad, i feel very sad aswell, yet i feel bad because i don't share that same feelings as he does, which is of course: Pain, Suffering, Saddness, i feel different, something that is a positive thing, when i heard that my grandfather died, right after work, as soon as i heard the terrible and tragic news, i said to god: - It's not your fault, people say it is, but it's not.''
For the next seven-eight days, i have witness different emotions, met different people that where connected to my grandfather, never have i met someone like him who has the nerve to speak with so many people and change them for who they are. He was kind, generous, funny sense of humour, caring and attentive.
After the funeral, people invited us to his favorite pub, drinks where served, great stories where told about him.
- Goodbye Grandpa." i said as we left the pub with smiles on our faces.
** End**
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Continuing on, Today is my first day of school since i've returned from our ''trip'', I feel depressed lately, even though it may involve Grandpa's death, it took me a frickin while for me to feel the pain, to be honest, i don't see saddness in death, the last funeral i was in, when they buried the person who died, i was sad, yes, but i wasn't sad as in: I'm really upset that this such person does not exist and i can't stand the baring pain of it, so crying has to help me release the pain...." i don't do that.
Moving on, Since i've been staying (in total) of two weeks in Ottawa and Montreal, i've been somewhat School-Sick, and my friends that mean alot to me, i've miss them aswell,
Including someone special, lately i've been frantic about a special someone that meant alot to me, (it's been about close to a month that i HAD these feelings) but unfortunately, people have made proof of evil deeds that the person i love has made.
This person has betrayed me, and backstabbed me, i feel used and mocked behind my back. I fully don't understand how a person that meant alot to me and seemed to have a wonderful friendly relationship has the guts to turn like some pathetic A**hole!!! What is the motivation for that??! has there been some contact with some satanic worshiper and has taken possesion of this person??!!! And the worst part is that i've told her my problems and my life with Aspergers and ADHD, and that just sucks monkey ba**!!! I can't believe that i've done that,
It doesn't seem that this person has the guts to do that, when you just look at them.
Let her go!! i say!!
Tyler Mac
Thursday, April 1, 2010
Patience is something that i can`t get through a check
Living with asperger's everyday has been a challenge, espcially when you don't think like everyone does, i have different reasons why i love people, people might object, some people might think it's sweet. yet i don't know why i got that feeling that somebody else is waking up with me, i eventually realize that it was my ego either deflating before i even begin my day.
Patience is something that i have to earn, i basically have no patience anymore, i get tired of being promised something and have to wait t'il tomorrow and then there was some delay and then we have to wait t'il next week, (i won't give any examples because some people might be offended) i am a person that likes people to keep their promises, my parent's are not people that keep their promises, 47.776% of the time we change the whole promise into a little modification, like say, they promised us to go the trails, they promise and we shake hands on it, then they change the promise to their own appeal because they realise that it's just not what they want.
It's happened before in my household........many times, deal are broken, promises are not kept, even blackmailling was a big deal about several years ago. I don't think i can fully trust my parents, if i did, my little conscious would be nagging me telling; - Don' do this to yourself....»
And it goes the same way at school, i never lend any money to people, if they want a chocolate milk, i will buy them one, instead of giving the money to them TO buy the milk, that's how i work. Things that just piss me off, people and their lack of faith into one another.
I just wish my family would be like : - Yes i trust you that you won't crash the car while backing up into the garage EVEN THOUGH yo don't have a drivers license . » (done it once, it went great.) Sometimes, i'd rather be loaded up into work than be at home, it's sad....sometimes, i don't want people to feel THAT bad (LOL!!) I love working, it keeps me busy, and it makes me understand more and more everyday in the work force.
I'm glad i'm returning to work tomorrow, 4-9pm seems like a good shift, gets me away from misery and sometimes i don't want to go to work because i miss the freedom, and then there's the money, where i have to save at least 700$ in my new savings account (which i haven't gotten around yet) and then i have to return my saber that is a defect, i emailed Saberforge, he's not answering, probably on vacation. Then there Ultrasabers, i have to write a money order, i have a shit load of work to do, and that's where i lose my patience because i want to get it done in one night, (the saberforge thing and getting the ultrasabers)
When i get impatient, i get nervous, anxious and getting a little annoying, my parents know that, some of my other family members know that, i can't make anymore mistakes and i can't seemt to speak up for myself because i get to scared of the consequence of one's opinion. And if they say that People with Asperger's are highly intelligent, they why people aren't listening to my ideas to solve things, i you think of it for a minute maybe my ideas one day would create new ones that will change someone or something. The only thing i want is people to listen to what i have to say, sit down have some coffee, i'll get a cookie...we can chat, talk about the weather, then talk about each other, what desires we want when we grow up, our challenges. Our pros and our cons.
Take me for example i have some pros and cons that i have to share for people to understand.
Pros:
- I'm nice and friendly
- I respect people for who they are (mentally challenged, ADD, ADHD, Tourette's, Dyslexia, etc. )
- I can make people laugh (sometimes it doesn't work, i tend to over do it)
- I am good with Lego, (i love being creative)
- I can be imaginative, write short stories ( i love creepy horror stories)
- I am a capable person of helping others
- I love my home, and my family (sister included)
Here comes the cons, it makes me a little upset:
Cons:
- I impatient when there's to much to do
- I can be a jerk if people treat me like shit at school (I tend to have this hatred that makes me feel like i have no remorse over those who've hurted me.)
- I can be annoying (i ask ALOT of questions if i don't understand or if i'm getting over-anxious about something, i double-check even with things that i already know because i HAVE to make sure that i don't make mistakes.)
- I try to be independant, but i feel drained when i'm being yelled at by my parents (that doesn't allow me to speak up, because i feel like i'm on a table; tied down and a laser coming up to my crotch and unable to save myself because i'm too weak.)
- I tend to be sarcastic.............ALOT (In my life i took everything seriously when i first arrived at school in Fredericton, there's was many people that took advantage of me, since i was new, they made me believe things that are completely not rtrue, and that's half the story, since i gained that «Knowledge» I was surely humiliated, they mocked me for the things i did as a child (being depressed, and chewing my nails and have that look on my face like if i was in a creepy scary abandoned mansion,)
- I can be a real jerk and get to people's weak spots, (that is something i'm not proud of, i try to contain myself, lately i've been in no firery conversations or fights. I say it now that i can control and just walk away, but then when it happens, it gets more and more stranger how i just shoot my mouth. )
(End of the Pros and Cons list)
Anyways, the basis of this post is that i have to write this down, because i can't take the stress at home and just go and write it down where the stress is.
Today, i feel cheated, betrayed and lied too. Lately my family has been stressed, my grand-father and my grand-mother are both in the hospital, we left last week to visit both of them, it was sad, my grand-father is okay but not stable, the status of my grand-mother is currently unknown to me,
and lately, my family has been stressed because of that, i feel that i'm responsible for it, I was very upset like them. But i feel like it's all my fault.
I don't seem to well today......
Emotionally and Mentally
Tyler Mac
Patience is something that i have to earn, i basically have no patience anymore, i get tired of being promised something and have to wait t'il tomorrow and then there was some delay and then we have to wait t'il next week, (i won't give any examples because some people might be offended) i am a person that likes people to keep their promises, my parent's are not people that keep their promises, 47.776% of the time we change the whole promise into a little modification, like say, they promised us to go the trails, they promise and we shake hands on it, then they change the promise to their own appeal because they realise that it's just not what they want.
It's happened before in my household........many times, deal are broken, promises are not kept, even blackmailling was a big deal about several years ago. I don't think i can fully trust my parents, if i did, my little conscious would be nagging me telling; - Don' do this to yourself....»
And it goes the same way at school, i never lend any money to people, if they want a chocolate milk, i will buy them one, instead of giving the money to them TO buy the milk, that's how i work. Things that just piss me off, people and their lack of faith into one another.
I just wish my family would be like : - Yes i trust you that you won't crash the car while backing up into the garage EVEN THOUGH yo don't have a drivers license . » (done it once, it went great.) Sometimes, i'd rather be loaded up into work than be at home, it's sad....sometimes, i don't want people to feel THAT bad (LOL!!) I love working, it keeps me busy, and it makes me understand more and more everyday in the work force.
I'm glad i'm returning to work tomorrow, 4-9pm seems like a good shift, gets me away from misery and sometimes i don't want to go to work because i miss the freedom, and then there's the money, where i have to save at least 700$ in my new savings account (which i haven't gotten around yet) and then i have to return my saber that is a defect, i emailed Saberforge, he's not answering, probably on vacation. Then there Ultrasabers, i have to write a money order, i have a shit load of work to do, and that's where i lose my patience because i want to get it done in one night, (the saberforge thing and getting the ultrasabers)
When i get impatient, i get nervous, anxious and getting a little annoying, my parents know that, some of my other family members know that, i can't make anymore mistakes and i can't seemt to speak up for myself because i get to scared of the consequence of one's opinion. And if they say that People with Asperger's are highly intelligent, they why people aren't listening to my ideas to solve things, i you think of it for a minute maybe my ideas one day would create new ones that will change someone or something. The only thing i want is people to listen to what i have to say, sit down have some coffee, i'll get a cookie...we can chat, talk about the weather, then talk about each other, what desires we want when we grow up, our challenges. Our pros and our cons.
Take me for example i have some pros and cons that i have to share for people to understand.
Pros:
- I'm nice and friendly
- I respect people for who they are (mentally challenged, ADD, ADHD, Tourette's, Dyslexia, etc. )
- I can make people laugh (sometimes it doesn't work, i tend to over do it)
- I am good with Lego, (i love being creative)
- I can be imaginative, write short stories ( i love creepy horror stories)
- I am a capable person of helping others
- I love my home, and my family (sister included)
Here comes the cons, it makes me a little upset:
Cons:
- I impatient when there's to much to do
- I can be a jerk if people treat me like shit at school (I tend to have this hatred that makes me feel like i have no remorse over those who've hurted me.)
- I can be annoying (i ask ALOT of questions if i don't understand or if i'm getting over-anxious about something, i double-check even with things that i already know because i HAVE to make sure that i don't make mistakes.)
- I try to be independant, but i feel drained when i'm being yelled at by my parents (that doesn't allow me to speak up, because i feel like i'm on a table; tied down and a laser coming up to my crotch and unable to save myself because i'm too weak.)
- I tend to be sarcastic.............ALOT (In my life i took everything seriously when i first arrived at school in Fredericton, there's was many people that took advantage of me, since i was new, they made me believe things that are completely not rtrue, and that's half the story, since i gained that «Knowledge» I was surely humiliated, they mocked me for the things i did as a child (being depressed, and chewing my nails and have that look on my face like if i was in a creepy scary abandoned mansion,)
- I can be a real jerk and get to people's weak spots, (that is something i'm not proud of, i try to contain myself, lately i've been in no firery conversations or fights. I say it now that i can control and just walk away, but then when it happens, it gets more and more stranger how i just shoot my mouth. )
(End of the Pros and Cons list)
Anyways, the basis of this post is that i have to write this down, because i can't take the stress at home and just go and write it down where the stress is.
Today, i feel cheated, betrayed and lied too. Lately my family has been stressed, my grand-father and my grand-mother are both in the hospital, we left last week to visit both of them, it was sad, my grand-father is okay but not stable, the status of my grand-mother is currently unknown to me,
and lately, my family has been stressed because of that, i feel that i'm responsible for it, I was very upset like them. But i feel like it's all my fault.
I don't seem to well today......
Emotionally and Mentally
Tyler Mac
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Decisions, Decisions
Ok,
As i've said before, i love FX sabers, i've seen them in Bathurst, and i've seen a shitload of them in a comic store in Ottawa. That was my greatest desire: to have an fx saber, I've looked and drooled at the sites that offered them, PARSABERS, SABERFORGE, ULTRASABERS, you name e'm.
I've ordered the Regal, as i've said before, Now i've decided to get another one from Ultrasabers, it's another competitor of Saberforge and Parks, but i've decided to collect them and one day have a big gigantic saber battle, ( a childs fantasy and a dream i once had)
Let me get to the basics, i've made some heavy research (as all the research i do) On Ultrasabers, i will also compare it to Saberforge's sabers, quality and customer service (SO FAR)
Here we go:
Ultrasabers:
Info: A company that makes machined dueling sabers, like any other, (well most of them) they machined high strong aluminium and turn it into sabers that are bright like an angel that descends from the heavens down onto the earth. they offer two extra blade colors: Silver and Orange.
Difference from Saberforge: I see a mild difference between these two companies (i checked them on McAfee they are not scams, i might be wrong) To begin, they have more variety in products and accesories, (such as: battery holder for those who make they own blade, different types of blades : Fx dueling blades, Mid-Grade dueling blade and other.)
They have dozens and dozens of sabers, saber staffs, curved sabers, regular sabers, and they even can modify your own Hasbro Fx sabers to convert it into a dueling saber or you can buy a kit on how to make the conversion yourself. Unlike saberforge, when you order a saber from Ultra, they send you a retention screw that allows you to insert/remove the blade without any hassle, the sabers are made to duel with your friends (If they have an Ultrasabers or .........Saberforge) 8( and they are very affordable (the price ranges around 45.00$ to 200.00$)
Opinion: Like my declaration, i've decided to buy an armada of sabers, (bring them to school....joking.....halloween??....joking) and i'm goind to buy a "test" saber Here is the victim of my evil experiments: MOUAHAHA!!!! It's not the ONE exactly, i'm giving you what an ultrasaber looks like:
As i've said before, i love FX sabers, i've seen them in Bathurst, and i've seen a shitload of them in a comic store in Ottawa. That was my greatest desire: to have an fx saber, I've looked and drooled at the sites that offered them, PARSABERS, SABERFORGE, ULTRASABERS, you name e'm.
I've ordered the Regal, as i've said before, Now i've decided to get another one from Ultrasabers, it's another competitor of Saberforge and Parks, but i've decided to collect them and one day have a big gigantic saber battle, ( a childs fantasy and a dream i once had)
Let me get to the basics, i've made some heavy research (as all the research i do) On Ultrasabers, i will also compare it to Saberforge's sabers, quality and customer service (SO FAR)
Here we go:
Ultrasabers:
Info: A company that makes machined dueling sabers, like any other, (well most of them) they machined high strong aluminium and turn it into sabers that are bright like an angel that descends from the heavens down onto the earth. they offer two extra blade colors: Silver and Orange.
Difference from Saberforge: I see a mild difference between these two companies (i checked them on McAfee they are not scams, i might be wrong) To begin, they have more variety in products and accesories, (such as: battery holder for those who make they own blade, different types of blades : Fx dueling blades, Mid-Grade dueling blade and other.)
They have dozens and dozens of sabers, saber staffs, curved sabers, regular sabers, and they even can modify your own Hasbro Fx sabers to convert it into a dueling saber or you can buy a kit on how to make the conversion yourself. Unlike saberforge, when you order a saber from Ultra, they send you a retention screw that allows you to insert/remove the blade without any hassle, the sabers are made to duel with your friends (If they have an Ultrasabers or .........Saberforge) 8( and they are very affordable (the price ranges around 45.00$ to 200.00$)
Opinion: Like my declaration, i've decided to buy an armada of sabers, (bring them to school....joking.....halloween??....joking) and i'm goind to buy a "test" saber Here is the victim of my evil experiments: MOUAHAHA!!!! It's not the ONE exactly, i'm giving you what an ultrasaber looks like:
It looks simple, and you can see on the top of the opening of the hilt.................THERES A RETENTION SCREW WOW!!! THAT is what holds the blade tight, and i've emailed them to confirm if all of the sabers comes with a retention screw and they said yes. I am excited..........but wait!!
I need to start saving money, i gotta open a savings account, get my next paycheck and deposit on the savings and they...........well...maybe.......i'll be able to FUFILL my evil experiments, MOUAHAHA!!!!
Patience is what i need , i know i got a saberforge just a few days ago, but.......i am a collector, working or not (okay working is my best choice) I'm going to find my futur saber supplier and then i will enjoy them and then........beat the crap out of my sister with (EN GARDE!!)
Wish me luck joyfoul readers who are completely not related to me.
Tyler Mac
Something deceitful
I received my Saberforge custom LED saber March 29th, It was amazing design and craftmanship, it was smaller than the photo i saw on the web. The hilt was heavy alone without the blade, and as i looked through the package ti see if there was an Allen Wrench or a screw of some sort to attach the blade, there was none.
I was happy to have the saber yes, but it was a disapointement to see that there was no Allen Wrench to allow me to attach the blade into the hilt.........it sucks!! but i gotta suck it up , (somehow i don't feel like doing that)
i've made a little «Évaluation» of the saber
Design: 4/4: The design is unique,
Hilt Intergrity: 4/6: Everytime i shaked the hilt there was something moving in there, i don't think that was the intent of the designer
Acessories: 1/3: Nothing except the blade the kil key that allows the saber to be turned off while traveling in your car's trunk, and the hilt, and the shipping receipt, what?? no nice letter saying: Thank you for buying from Saberforge....NONONO!!! It might be because he was busy, but he's gotta at least have sympathy regarding me buying onw of his sabers.
Customer Services: 3/6: He seemed very polite, yet i think it be better off by NOT answering my emails with short little phrases such as a question like : - Dear Saberforge, i'm just wondering if i can get an update on my order that i placed last week..
Then he would just answer: - It shipped out last week......»
WHAT??? No detail when it would arrive??!! I gotta stop because the Customer Service is becoming more than a paraghraph.
Saber Brightness: 4/5: It was brighter than what i've seen previously on the web, on the videos they look like real lightsabers (that is what i thought until the guy on the video shows the saber on a table with the lights off and the blade lights would beam off the table and makes it look like the real Jedi Master Yoda with his bare claws.)
Extra Notes: I ordered a recharge port and rechargable battery pack, (NOTE: When i remove the kil key, there's a voice saying: - Sabersound Version One point O (O as in Oh GOD!!) and here's the funny part, i plug it in the battery charger it repeats half the words really fast and the battery charger plugged into the wall keeps flashing on and off, on and off,
I'll maybe post some photos of my saber.....
Thanks for reading
Tyler Mac
I was happy to have the saber yes, but it was a disapointement to see that there was no Allen Wrench to allow me to attach the blade into the hilt.........it sucks!! but i gotta suck it up , (somehow i don't feel like doing that)
i've made a little «Évaluation» of the saber
Design: 4/4: The design is unique,
Hilt Intergrity: 4/6: Everytime i shaked the hilt there was something moving in there, i don't think that was the intent of the designer
Acessories: 1/3: Nothing except the blade the kil key that allows the saber to be turned off while traveling in your car's trunk, and the hilt, and the shipping receipt, what?? no nice letter saying: Thank you for buying from Saberforge....NONONO!!! It might be because he was busy, but he's gotta at least have sympathy regarding me buying onw of his sabers.
Customer Services: 3/6: He seemed very polite, yet i think it be better off by NOT answering my emails with short little phrases such as a question like : - Dear Saberforge, i'm just wondering if i can get an update on my order that i placed last week..
Then he would just answer: - It shipped out last week......»
WHAT??? No detail when it would arrive??!! I gotta stop because the Customer Service is becoming more than a paraghraph.
Saber Brightness: 4/5: It was brighter than what i've seen previously on the web, on the videos they look like real lightsabers (that is what i thought until the guy on the video shows the saber on a table with the lights off and the blade lights would beam off the table and makes it look like the real Jedi Master Yoda with his bare claws.)
Extra Notes: I ordered a recharge port and rechargable battery pack, (NOTE: When i remove the kil key, there's a voice saying: - Sabersound Version One point O (O as in Oh GOD!!) and here's the funny part, i plug it in the battery charger it repeats half the words really fast and the battery charger plugged into the wall keeps flashing on and off, on and off,
I'll maybe post some photos of my saber.....
Thanks for reading
Tyler Mac
Friday, March 12, 2010
Something is coming.....and i'm excited,
For several years, i've been always of big fan of Star Wars lightsaber replicas, when i went back to visit my friends back in Bathurst, on of my friends had a Darth Vader FX saber, it was cool, i've always wanted one since then, it sounded cool, it can still remember the features: the sounding saber hum, the clasing sound upon hitting something, and many other things,
for years i've been trying to save (and by the word: " Save" i mean spending what little i had as soon as i got it.) money for something like that, but years ago, when you're in a thirty dollar a month allowance, you can't seem to find a way to make cash even though you're fourteen (at the time) and that you wanted to get a job but there is no trust at that time. So i had to wait, but on the way to my 16th birthday, i found some sites that where selling custom LED sabers,
You may ask what are LED sabers?? Clearly you guys need to do your research, but no need to rush down on the computer tonight and search on google: What the hell is a LED Saber??. no need to worry, i've done all the years of research, a LED saber is a lightsaber replica which are either machined or handcrafted, the Saber have a basic design decided by the designer,
Afterwords, the process of making the saber becomes diverse, they are many directions that the saber maker can go, it is all about choice, wether to make the coloring mecanism of the blade inside the Hilt (the thing that holds the saber) or inside the blade that goes INSIDE the hilt. And if the saber maker wants to put electronic on the saber (like the saber sound and the color LED chip), there has to be a choice of what sound to put on and where to make the vent holes on the bottom of the hilt which allow the sound to be heard.
Anyways, then after the saber hilt is completely finished, the is one two more things you have to do (besides adding the electronics on the hilt) is
1. and a retension screw on the top of the hilt (which when the blade is place on the hilt, you insert the retension screw on, and the blade in not removable and would allow the saber-wielder to fight on swing without the blade to come off)
2. find a blade. simple....let me elaborate on that.
::: The blades that you find on a Hasbro toy (such as the Darth Vader fx saber back in Bathurst) are not stable, and are easily destroyed if a person or persons decide to duel with the sabers, they will break eventually, however, you can find a small amount of little homemade companies making custom dueling sabers for a small profit or even a hobby, such companies are found only on the internet and can ONLY buy from the Internet
Two sites have been the most biggest money makers when it comes to making custom LED sabers
One is : http://www.parksabers.com/
INFO: This company is runned by a small amount of people, but is motivated by a whole lot of saber fans from what i've researched. They where first seen back in 1993 at COMIC-CON events where they would sell the're sabers for quite a high price, but it's worth it, because it's handcrafted by professionals. They're saber have no sound, but the color electronics are inside the blade (unlike other saber makers, where the electronics are inside the hilt and once you remove the blade a press the button......you've got a frickin jedi flashlight) so which allows you to buy different blades with different colors in them.....cool.
OPINION: I don't want to say anything negative, (in which case i usually do) Parksabers may be one crazy child's dream (which was my reaction when i saw the site three years ago) sure, there is a few copied Star Wars franchise sabers, i don't see how it's custom desgined by imagination, and unless you're an impatient person hoping that you're saber would get priority one shipping, guess again, the making and packing takes about 10-12 weeks to get there, no critizing just crazy customers.
2. the second is more fun to look at: http://www.saberforge.com/
INFO: Well, this is the guy i've ordered from what i've heard and seen on my computer screen, that the saber's are the brightest sh*t at night, (so i'm gonna scare some fricking ding dong ditcher's one night...and pound the shit outta them!!) and that the prices are really affordable (but i must warn you about shipping cost, where i live: 44.10$..ouch)
this "company" is runned by two-three-four-five-six people top notch, and they have experienced much customer complaints about the timing, and delay for the saber building process. but i know they'll get out of this mess.
OPINION: These guys can take alot of crap from customers from what i've read on www.fx-sabers.com on the forum section. these guys have my trust and i'm prettty sure that if my saber comes out like crap on a sunday morning, they'll fix it, they've done it before.
Here is a photo of the saber, it's not actually mine for say: it's from the website. here:
for years i've been trying to save (and by the word: " Save" i mean spending what little i had as soon as i got it.) money for something like that, but years ago, when you're in a thirty dollar a month allowance, you can't seem to find a way to make cash even though you're fourteen (at the time) and that you wanted to get a job but there is no trust at that time. So i had to wait, but on the way to my 16th birthday, i found some sites that where selling custom LED sabers,
You may ask what are LED sabers?? Clearly you guys need to do your research, but no need to rush down on the computer tonight and search on google: What the hell is a LED Saber??. no need to worry, i've done all the years of research, a LED saber is a lightsaber replica which are either machined or handcrafted, the Saber have a basic design decided by the designer,
Afterwords, the process of making the saber becomes diverse, they are many directions that the saber maker can go, it is all about choice, wether to make the coloring mecanism of the blade inside the Hilt (the thing that holds the saber) or inside the blade that goes INSIDE the hilt. And if the saber maker wants to put electronic on the saber (like the saber sound and the color LED chip), there has to be a choice of what sound to put on and where to make the vent holes on the bottom of the hilt which allow the sound to be heard.
Anyways, then after the saber hilt is completely finished, the is one two more things you have to do (besides adding the electronics on the hilt) is
1. and a retension screw on the top of the hilt (which when the blade is place on the hilt, you insert the retension screw on, and the blade in not removable and would allow the saber-wielder to fight on swing without the blade to come off)
2. find a blade. simple....let me elaborate on that.
::: The blades that you find on a Hasbro toy (such as the Darth Vader fx saber back in Bathurst) are not stable, and are easily destroyed if a person or persons decide to duel with the sabers, they will break eventually, however, you can find a small amount of little homemade companies making custom dueling sabers for a small profit or even a hobby, such companies are found only on the internet and can ONLY buy from the Internet
Two sites have been the most biggest money makers when it comes to making custom LED sabers
One is : http://www.parksabers.com/
INFO: This company is runned by a small amount of people, but is motivated by a whole lot of saber fans from what i've researched. They where first seen back in 1993 at COMIC-CON events where they would sell the're sabers for quite a high price, but it's worth it, because it's handcrafted by professionals. They're saber have no sound, but the color electronics are inside the blade (unlike other saber makers, where the electronics are inside the hilt and once you remove the blade a press the button......you've got a frickin jedi flashlight) so which allows you to buy different blades with different colors in them.....cool.
OPINION: I don't want to say anything negative, (in which case i usually do) Parksabers may be one crazy child's dream (which was my reaction when i saw the site three years ago) sure, there is a few copied Star Wars franchise sabers, i don't see how it's custom desgined by imagination, and unless you're an impatient person hoping that you're saber would get priority one shipping, guess again, the making and packing takes about 10-12 weeks to get there, no critizing just crazy customers.
2. the second is more fun to look at: http://www.saberforge.com/
INFO: Well, this is the guy i've ordered from what i've heard and seen on my computer screen, that the saber's are the brightest sh*t at night, (so i'm gonna scare some fricking ding dong ditcher's one night...and pound the shit outta them!!) and that the prices are really affordable (but i must warn you about shipping cost, where i live: 44.10$..ouch)
this "company" is runned by two-three-four-five-six people top notch, and they have experienced much customer complaints about the timing, and delay for the saber building process. but i know they'll get out of this mess.
OPINION: These guys can take alot of crap from customers from what i've read on www.fx-sabers.com on the forum section. these guys have my trust and i'm prettty sure that if my saber comes out like crap on a sunday morning, they'll fix it, they've done it before.
Here is a photo of the saber, it's not actually mine for say: it's from the website. here:
See ya
TYLER MAC
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Parents Make Mistakes?
It's been quite a while since i talked about my parents, i'd always thought: i should let people know what my parents are like"
Oh ho!! It just gets better, my family is important, but lately it seems that it starts to crumble like a an earthquake rumbling in the middle of the Jordan River where the quake is so strong that there a flock of fricking sheep and it was seperate from it's sheperd. In today's world more and more families and torn apart, aren't listening to each other, they're always different stories, she said this, he said that, it's just bullshit that families are completely seperated because the lack of communication, they are several different things that can .....improve the situation, what i find first is to understand the parental language and communication skills that are highly advanced (and also the gayest thing in the world)
This is why i always have something to come up with, they don't know how i think here's an example:
(Mother and Father are discussing between each other) **Note that is minorily (new word) similar to a real situation....no exagerrations pinky swear promise**
I walk in the room and try to get them to understand me after a confrontation involving : school, sister, and friends. (totally not true NEVER happened) My sister comes in and tells my parents of something "Apparently" very bad that i've done. (As people in the streets would say : - What you talking about b***?!!!" ) Anyways, i've was totally shocked that my sister would bring so much drama and chaos to one simple MISUNDERSTOOD thing,
As you know, when girls reach puberty, they tend to get : (i say stupid, but i'm just ranting when i'm saying that) they get completely unpredictable, frig, they should have a National Geographics documentary intitled: How to deal with your b*** of a teenage Son and Daughter (i put the capital letters on "son and daughter" because....- We are important in mom and dad's life love you. LOL..HA!! what a joke. "
I've always had a question, do parents really have a favorite son or daughter?? What a minute, why am i doing this?? it's not the kids fault, it can actually be the parent's fault!! WHAT??! IMPOSSIBLE!!! PARENTS ARE PERFECT IN EVERYWAY!!!
It seems that i've been witnessing some things about my parents that are just cute and priceless and what just not the parent-code-of-honor. Oh the joy of seeing my creator of flesh and blood cursing at us, telling us to shut-up, and expecting us to crying so badly, when it doesn't appeal to them they tend to increase the rage and shame and make us think : - Shame on you!! Tyler!! Never treat your sister like that!! " and goes for the reward and says : - Good girl, you my best creation, i'll listen to you until i'm old and rusty (already half way there) you want a cookie?!!! Good Girl!!!"
And me, since i'm a rebel of the family (besides my dog) I am completely indepenent, i used to think : - wow, mom and dad do the coolest things a walk to the park?!! That's the shit man!!" Now it's just like : - Get away from me, can't we just talk and TRY to really understand me??!! You're not used to have someone with Asperger's and i feel VERY different when it comes to analysis of my parents and when they think that they know me!!! well they don't!!!
One of the concepts that i use when it comes to our family is: Being Misunderstood, Different, awkward, impatiences, etc.
Frig, that's basically it, i have one that just eats more than half a cheesecake when he/she's upset (THIS IS NOT THE GOLDEN GIRLS!!!) and one can't calm the f*** down, he's apparently a supersonic yelling machine!!! His basic superpowers is: Stupid actions thatc an cause complete chaos to the family (thank you very much, one for me) yelling at a grave but loud volume that can make our dog sing as if the moon was full and he was a fricking wolf. and the last but not least my sister: An overexagerrated-dramatic-trouble-causing-two-timer-tattle-tale-little-twerp!!! ................................................................................................................oh and she craves attention!!!
let me give you some phrases that i've managed to translate with the help of some years of experience (do not try this with YOUR blog, it may cause some anger, frustration, total anxiety, etc, etc.)
Phrase 1: Anger issues: - OK SHUT UP YOU JERK!! (try to picture her all tomatoe red and tears, and an overly loud voice that sound 20% softer than the voice of God)
Phrase 2: Exagerrations: - You never listen to me, you always pay attention to Tyler and you TOTALLY IGNORE ME!!" (WBC - WhataBunchofCrap)
Phrase 3: ???? : Sister: - NONONONO!!! You're not listening!!! i meant that i telll you something and you don't listen, and they i have to yell and yell.
Mother: - I know, i just said that!!
Sister: - NONONONONONONO!! you don't!!!!
Thanks for reading
Tyler Mac
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Oh ho!! It just gets better, my family is important, but lately it seems that it starts to crumble like a an earthquake rumbling in the middle of the Jordan River where the quake is so strong that there a flock of fricking sheep and it was seperate from it's sheperd. In today's world more and more families and torn apart, aren't listening to each other, they're always different stories, she said this, he said that, it's just bullshit that families are completely seperated because the lack of communication, they are several different things that can .....improve the situation, what i find first is to understand the parental language and communication skills that are highly advanced (and also the gayest thing in the world)
This is why i always have something to come up with, they don't know how i think here's an example:
(Mother and Father are discussing between each other) **Note that is minorily (new word) similar to a real situation....no exagerrations pinky swear promise**
I walk in the room and try to get them to understand me after a confrontation involving : school, sister, and friends. (totally not true NEVER happened) My sister comes in and tells my parents of something "Apparently" very bad that i've done. (As people in the streets would say : - What you talking about b***?!!!" ) Anyways, i've was totally shocked that my sister would bring so much drama and chaos to one simple MISUNDERSTOOD thing,
As you know, when girls reach puberty, they tend to get : (i say stupid, but i'm just ranting when i'm saying that) they get completely unpredictable, frig, they should have a National Geographics documentary intitled: How to deal with your b*** of a teenage Son and Daughter (i put the capital letters on "son and daughter" because....- We are important in mom and dad's life love you. LOL..HA!! what a joke. "
I've always had a question, do parents really have a favorite son or daughter?? What a minute, why am i doing this?? it's not the kids fault, it can actually be the parent's fault!! WHAT??! IMPOSSIBLE!!! PARENTS ARE PERFECT IN EVERYWAY!!!
It seems that i've been witnessing some things about my parents that are just cute and priceless and what just not the parent-code-of-honor. Oh the joy of seeing my creator of flesh and blood cursing at us, telling us to shut-up, and expecting us to crying so badly, when it doesn't appeal to them they tend to increase the rage and shame and make us think : - Shame on you!! Tyler!! Never treat your sister like that!! " and goes for the reward and says : - Good girl, you my best creation, i'll listen to you until i'm old and rusty (already half way there) you want a cookie?!!! Good Girl!!!"
And me, since i'm a rebel of the family (besides my dog) I am completely indepenent, i used to think : - wow, mom and dad do the coolest things a walk to the park?!! That's the shit man!!" Now it's just like : - Get away from me, can't we just talk and TRY to really understand me??!! You're not used to have someone with Asperger's and i feel VERY different when it comes to analysis of my parents and when they think that they know me!!! well they don't!!!
One of the concepts that i use when it comes to our family is: Being Misunderstood, Different, awkward, impatiences, etc.
Frig, that's basically it, i have one that just eats more than half a cheesecake when he/she's upset (THIS IS NOT THE GOLDEN GIRLS!!!) and one can't calm the f*** down, he's apparently a supersonic yelling machine!!! His basic superpowers is: Stupid actions thatc an cause complete chaos to the family (thank you very much, one for me) yelling at a grave but loud volume that can make our dog sing as if the moon was full and he was a fricking wolf. and the last but not least my sister: An overexagerrated-dramatic-trouble-causing-two-timer-tattle-tale-little-twerp!!! ................................................................................................................oh and she craves attention!!!
let me give you some phrases that i've managed to translate with the help of some years of experience (do not try this with YOUR blog, it may cause some anger, frustration, total anxiety, etc, etc.)
Phrase 1: Anger issues: - OK SHUT UP YOU JERK!! (try to picture her all tomatoe red and tears, and an overly loud voice that sound 20% softer than the voice of God)
Phrase 2: Exagerrations: - You never listen to me, you always pay attention to Tyler and you TOTALLY IGNORE ME!!" (WBC - WhataBunchofCrap)
Phrase 3: ???? : Sister: - NONONONO!!! You're not listening!!! i meant that i telll you something and you don't listen, and they i have to yell and yell.
Mother: - I know, i just said that!!
Sister: - NONONONONONONO!! you don't!!!!
Thanks for reading
Tyler Mac
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