Let me get this straight, from what this f*cked up generation shows me, only looks care when you love someone??!!! HA!!! Makes me laugh and piss my pants when i hear of that, because SOME people can't seem to keep the relationships going because
1. the guy just loves boobs and genitals and only likes that person because of that. (NOT WHAT I'M EXPERIENCING)
2. The girl/guy can only be interested because the have the money and power (NOT WHAT I'M EXPERIENCING)
3. The person that you may love turn out to be a completely different person when it come to affection, HA!! That's what i'm getting to experience, let me elaborate:
this person (obviously a girl) is what a call in my dictionnary "Amazingly Beautiful" it was a shocker that this person was single, I was completely moved by her beauty, her smile, her interlectual thinking, her .....fussy eating habits and the way she yelled in English (not at me of course !!) and many other things,
She came a long way from being here in Canada, she came from Congo, yes, she's African, (doesn't really matter) there was times where i wanted to just be alone with her and just talk, talk talk and talk, get to know her and picture myself being a humble and "actual" nice guy that can treat a girl with respect (unlike other men at school). **Sigh**
We first met in grade ten, in gym class, our teacher was teaching us salsa dance and me and her danced, (that was a struggle that i had with anxiety, especially with a person this beautiful is not acting like a b*tch!! Unlike the other hot chicks who smoke pot and give BJ'S to anyone that says that they're hot. :( )
HA!! I remember it like it was yesterday, she was pretty, wonderful hair......see that's the thing about the women of Africa, they tend to have beautiful hair, braided, natural (never seen it though) , smoothed into the back of the head)
It sickens me to see how much injustice for me not to be able to communicate verbally with her, i always write her notes and tell her how i feel, but there's something that wasn't right about that, there was many things that i could truthfully tell her in my letter, but i was just scared that people that she knew may be showed the notes i right her.
And when it comes to sense of humour, she apparently laughs at burps and farts ....(awkward yet funny....somehow) and when i get overconfident about my looks she just laughs because she knows it isn't true that i'm "that" handsome (or even handsome at all, if it's that type of case) ........................**sigh**
As of these last few weeks there has been many complications regarding my feelings towards her, everything is like a roller coaster ride, i love her so much, she doesn't seem to understand my perspective of "love". Either i'm too good looking or there has been some major misunderstanding about me and her. Nothing feels like it's good enough, i want to engage into a relationship and she can't really understand what i'm saying, either that or she just isn't interested, that's when i cracked.........tired of the same routine, she's been chatting with another friend of hers in which "I" also loved for a while, it seemed that she agreed with her that i wasn't beautiful at all, that's was a little too f*cking honest right there!! If she wanted to help me float my boat (other words: make me feel happy) she'd be telling me lies instead of just "avoiding" the question: - Is Tyler beautiful??"
BUT NOOO!!! someone's gotta lay down the fire, one shot can be lethal my friends.....
Anyways, what else can i do?? go play tennis and whack my balls in a jar that says WILSON with a racket??! I haven't headed to the courts yet and that's my discovery of stress relief???!! NFW!!! (No.F*cking.Way)
I am tired of being judge by the looks on the outside (I AM SOMEWHAT GOOD LOOKING!!)
and then be rejected by some s*** that has more sexual relationship than Blanche Devero from the Golden Girls in a week, nothing makes senses, what?? is it my so called "sarcasm" I am not ALL the time sarcastic, during critical situation (like dissing your mom for example) is when i MOSTLY use my sarcasm and then i get LIKELY grounded OK??!!!
I don't know anymore, i'm tired of this same of routine of nice looking people choosing the hockey playing loser instead of a computer genius (who may or may not give you free repairs on your computer!!! ). it always seems to be the pretty people that are the a-holes. Damm!! it just sucks to have someone SOOOOO attractive, and then she turns you down without honesty and then it ends like that.........................................................................................................
Man!! I LOVE THIS BLOG!!! ANYONE ELSE WANNA SEE ME FREAK OUT ON BLOGSPOT.COM???!!!
YEAH!!! Rejection rules!!!
Give'ya an update later today and see what the hell is going on..........
Tyler Mac the depressed
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
AAARRGHHH!!! Money is the dumbest thing that man has ever invented!!!
Something lucky always happens to me, i have this distinctive thing about lightsabers, it amazes me how a glowing stick manages to make people mad!! I love it!! Sadly, i've always hated the tiny little ones made out of hardened plastic, and the "Plastic" blade was only sixteen inches of length. Like many posts before, i have told everyone that i knew, that i was getting a saber, like it or not my parents let me get a job (i'm sorry, i should have rephrased it: Ready or not.) I was tired of seeing things that where "over" my "allowance", and i was 15 years old when i was thinking about working somewhere, the problem was : where? , besides, My mouth was drooling when i saw this:
And then i saw several other designs that seemed "cool" at the time such as this one:
And then there was many other's that inspired me to buy, but this one (which i've bought) has made me happy at the beginning and then it made me upset was from a company called Saberforge, i'm returning the defective product that they send me (without even any supplies to allow me to attach the blade to the hilt.........curious)
But then i feel in love with Ultrasabers (in other words: I'm trying another company) They make saber out of complete near/undestructable/great color/comes with a screw/good price/good shipping/etc/etc/etc
Sadly, i have to return the first one that i bought already (but.......i already got the money order for the other one.........so.......................yeah!!) Now i'm just trying to find a certain company that makes it easy for me to :
1. Have a continuous supply of sabers (in case of large people want to duel)
2. Have a reliable company that ships really quick (in which Ultrasabers, they do.)
3. They have a variety of sabers (single-sabers, double-bladed-staff, tonfas, kamas, etc. )
4. They can have more than one method of payment (in which Ultrasabers has many, varieting from: paypal, money-orders, etc. )
Nothing else seems to surprise me, but i'm taking care of many things right, now, my school work, my job, my saber issues, my love life, my battle with anxiety and it's entity that lives within me, and there also a problem with me and money, i HAVE TO open a savings account, that's the thing that makes me want to save my money for the near-futur and beyond (like 10 years........or maybe 20 years.)
**sigh** and there's this craving for to point out what's going on with my love life, first of all, to all those who think i'm a f*ggot; my sexuality is currently none of your business, however i will point out something that i am heterosexual.
Anyways, love and sadness have made this a veeerrryyyy bumpy roller coaster ride, there that feeling of loving someone, and then just missing a certain person in your life, like my grand-father for example. I am very attracted to someone as of this point in my life (which i find to be normal at this stage in my life) she's quite the person, she's not from North America i can tell you that (that's it though!!) and she's quite pretty, yet there has been some..........complication regarding our understanding of each other, there hasn't been a day that i think of her, even at work. She make my life special, she means something and plays a part in my life at school, she 's one of the regular people that i speak to. It magical that it makes me feel this way, but then she's one person that you reeeaalllly need to completely have patience with (which in my degree of patience 1 being as impatience as a young child to 10 being patient a Jesus Christ would be, and my rating for myslef would be 5/10, i can tolerate something for a while but then i have to wonder: what the hell is going on?? is there a change to the plan and i wasn't told about??!"
Anyways, let's see where it goes.
Tyler Mac
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
What is love?? I don't understand
For someone like me, I see love as a sign of affection, (I'm pretty sure that's an obvious for anyone that reads this) yet what I notice, is that when you think you love someone and can see yourself with them, then the next day, you go and meet that someone, you have a hard time picturing THEM because they are right THERE, it gets complicated into my mind when it comes to that,
my question is: Is there truely love for everyone?? Sadly, i've had little faith in my life when it comes to relationships, i see myself as a complicated person who is hard to understand, and when i say that i will elaborate: I can't seem to talk verbaly with big words when i'm with someone, however when it comes to chatting with someone on MSN, FACEBOOK, EBUDDY, Etc. i seem to sound like one gigantic nerd that has this GREAT vocabulary, i don't know why that happens, I guess when people don't see me, i don't get nervous, and that comes when i have a relationship with someone,
Like for example, i don't do PDA (Personal Display of Affection) i do PrvDA (Private Display of Affection), that's one of the things I can't control, i don't like for people to know that i'm dating someone, or anything that the world can critize, especially when there are people that can make my life (and other people miserable), it sucks to see what people can do to each other, so cruely, so without regret and remorse (when that comes to murder and rape, of course.) I can't see myself having some public relationship with someone, to me, it doesn't click with me, and besides......i need my privacy.
But when it comes to being alone with that person and getting that time that you've desired, you get alot of pressure off of you, that's just plain logic, it's simple, if i'm unable to have a public relationship in front of the others, it simply stresses me out. BUT, when it comes to being in your own comfort zone (AKA: Alone with that person that you love.) you get changed immediately.
And besides, there is bound to be people like me (Without the Aspergers) that just want a private relationship. I've always thought before that it was just completely ab-normal that someone would want that.
And when it comes to having someone special in my life, i have none at the momment, what is there to tell if i have nothing?? I do love someone, but is there something that i have to do to get acceptance from this person?? I don't ask someone out via : chatbox, i do it by letter and try have a nice writing (which i don't have that talent........yet) when i do that, i seem to have that something better than just words, when i write my honest feelings, i have that capability to have anything achieved, getting people to understand (somehow THAT works) whatever the case, i see that writing everything down that i want to say, seems better than words.......it's a bad thing for me, because i need to practice speaking and getting those GD social cues!!
But the sooner the better, is what i say sometimes.
Oh well.......nothing changed yet,
Tyler Mac
my question is: Is there truely love for everyone?? Sadly, i've had little faith in my life when it comes to relationships, i see myself as a complicated person who is hard to understand, and when i say that i will elaborate: I can't seem to talk verbaly with big words when i'm with someone, however when it comes to chatting with someone on MSN, FACEBOOK, EBUDDY, Etc. i seem to sound like one gigantic nerd that has this GREAT vocabulary, i don't know why that happens, I guess when people don't see me, i don't get nervous, and that comes when i have a relationship with someone,
Like for example, i don't do PDA (Personal Display of Affection) i do PrvDA (Private Display of Affection), that's one of the things I can't control, i don't like for people to know that i'm dating someone, or anything that the world can critize, especially when there are people that can make my life (and other people miserable), it sucks to see what people can do to each other, so cruely, so without regret and remorse (when that comes to murder and rape, of course.) I can't see myself having some public relationship with someone, to me, it doesn't click with me, and besides......i need my privacy.
But when it comes to being alone with that person and getting that time that you've desired, you get alot of pressure off of you, that's just plain logic, it's simple, if i'm unable to have a public relationship in front of the others, it simply stresses me out. BUT, when it comes to being in your own comfort zone (AKA: Alone with that person that you love.) you get changed immediately.
And besides, there is bound to be people like me (Without the Aspergers) that just want a private relationship. I've always thought before that it was just completely ab-normal that someone would want that.
And when it comes to having someone special in my life, i have none at the momment, what is there to tell if i have nothing?? I do love someone, but is there something that i have to do to get acceptance from this person?? I don't ask someone out via : chatbox, i do it by letter and try have a nice writing (which i don't have that talent........yet) when i do that, i seem to have that something better than just words, when i write my honest feelings, i have that capability to have anything achieved, getting people to understand (somehow THAT works) whatever the case, i see that writing everything down that i want to say, seems better than words.......it's a bad thing for me, because i need to practice speaking and getting those GD social cues!!
But the sooner the better, is what i say sometimes.
Oh well.......nothing changed yet,
Tyler Mac
Grandfather is gone....and so am I
**sigh**
Writing this, makes me feel cold, I have so many things to catch up, since grandpa's death, (two saturdays ago) i have felt different emotions, Hatred, Depression, Joy, Saddness, and even some that are indescribable , During the time of death of my grandfather, my father has been very sad, i feel very sad aswell, yet i feel bad because i don't share that same feelings as he does, which is of course: Pain, Suffering, Saddness, i feel different, something that is a positive thing, when i heard that my grandfather died, right after work, as soon as i heard the terrible and tragic news, i said to god: - It's not your fault, people say it is, but it's not.''
For the next seven-eight days, i have witness different emotions, met different people that where connected to my grandfather, never have i met someone like him who has the nerve to speak with so many people and change them for who they are. He was kind, generous, funny sense of humour, caring and attentive.
After the funeral, people invited us to his favorite pub, drinks where served, great stories where told about him.
- Goodbye Grandpa." i said as we left the pub with smiles on our faces.
** End**
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Continuing on, Today is my first day of school since i've returned from our ''trip'', I feel depressed lately, even though it may involve Grandpa's death, it took me a frickin while for me to feel the pain, to be honest, i don't see saddness in death, the last funeral i was in, when they buried the person who died, i was sad, yes, but i wasn't sad as in: I'm really upset that this such person does not exist and i can't stand the baring pain of it, so crying has to help me release the pain...." i don't do that.
Moving on, Since i've been staying (in total) of two weeks in Ottawa and Montreal, i've been somewhat School-Sick, and my friends that mean alot to me, i've miss them aswell,
Including someone special, lately i've been frantic about a special someone that meant alot to me, (it's been about close to a month that i HAD these feelings) but unfortunately, people have made proof of evil deeds that the person i love has made.
This person has betrayed me, and backstabbed me, i feel used and mocked behind my back. I fully don't understand how a person that meant alot to me and seemed to have a wonderful friendly relationship has the guts to turn like some pathetic A**hole!!! What is the motivation for that??! has there been some contact with some satanic worshiper and has taken possesion of this person??!!! And the worst part is that i've told her my problems and my life with Aspergers and ADHD, and that just sucks monkey ba**!!! I can't believe that i've done that,
It doesn't seem that this person has the guts to do that, when you just look at them.
Let her go!! i say!!
Tyler Mac
Writing this, makes me feel cold, I have so many things to catch up, since grandpa's death, (two saturdays ago) i have felt different emotions, Hatred, Depression, Joy, Saddness, and even some that are indescribable , During the time of death of my grandfather, my father has been very sad, i feel very sad aswell, yet i feel bad because i don't share that same feelings as he does, which is of course: Pain, Suffering, Saddness, i feel different, something that is a positive thing, when i heard that my grandfather died, right after work, as soon as i heard the terrible and tragic news, i said to god: - It's not your fault, people say it is, but it's not.''
For the next seven-eight days, i have witness different emotions, met different people that where connected to my grandfather, never have i met someone like him who has the nerve to speak with so many people and change them for who they are. He was kind, generous, funny sense of humour, caring and attentive.
After the funeral, people invited us to his favorite pub, drinks where served, great stories where told about him.
- Goodbye Grandpa." i said as we left the pub with smiles on our faces.
** End**
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Continuing on, Today is my first day of school since i've returned from our ''trip'', I feel depressed lately, even though it may involve Grandpa's death, it took me a frickin while for me to feel the pain, to be honest, i don't see saddness in death, the last funeral i was in, when they buried the person who died, i was sad, yes, but i wasn't sad as in: I'm really upset that this such person does not exist and i can't stand the baring pain of it, so crying has to help me release the pain...." i don't do that.
Moving on, Since i've been staying (in total) of two weeks in Ottawa and Montreal, i've been somewhat School-Sick, and my friends that mean alot to me, i've miss them aswell,
Including someone special, lately i've been frantic about a special someone that meant alot to me, (it's been about close to a month that i HAD these feelings) but unfortunately, people have made proof of evil deeds that the person i love has made.
This person has betrayed me, and backstabbed me, i feel used and mocked behind my back. I fully don't understand how a person that meant alot to me and seemed to have a wonderful friendly relationship has the guts to turn like some pathetic A**hole!!! What is the motivation for that??! has there been some contact with some satanic worshiper and has taken possesion of this person??!!! And the worst part is that i've told her my problems and my life with Aspergers and ADHD, and that just sucks monkey ba**!!! I can't believe that i've done that,
It doesn't seem that this person has the guts to do that, when you just look at them.
Let her go!! i say!!
Tyler Mac
Thursday, April 1, 2010
Patience is something that i can`t get through a check
Living with asperger's everyday has been a challenge, espcially when you don't think like everyone does, i have different reasons why i love people, people might object, some people might think it's sweet. yet i don't know why i got that feeling that somebody else is waking up with me, i eventually realize that it was my ego either deflating before i even begin my day.
Patience is something that i have to earn, i basically have no patience anymore, i get tired of being promised something and have to wait t'il tomorrow and then there was some delay and then we have to wait t'il next week, (i won't give any examples because some people might be offended) i am a person that likes people to keep their promises, my parent's are not people that keep their promises, 47.776% of the time we change the whole promise into a little modification, like say, they promised us to go the trails, they promise and we shake hands on it, then they change the promise to their own appeal because they realise that it's just not what they want.
It's happened before in my household........many times, deal are broken, promises are not kept, even blackmailling was a big deal about several years ago. I don't think i can fully trust my parents, if i did, my little conscious would be nagging me telling; - Don' do this to yourself....»
And it goes the same way at school, i never lend any money to people, if they want a chocolate milk, i will buy them one, instead of giving the money to them TO buy the milk, that's how i work. Things that just piss me off, people and their lack of faith into one another.
I just wish my family would be like : - Yes i trust you that you won't crash the car while backing up into the garage EVEN THOUGH yo don't have a drivers license . » (done it once, it went great.) Sometimes, i'd rather be loaded up into work than be at home, it's sad....sometimes, i don't want people to feel THAT bad (LOL!!) I love working, it keeps me busy, and it makes me understand more and more everyday in the work force.
I'm glad i'm returning to work tomorrow, 4-9pm seems like a good shift, gets me away from misery and sometimes i don't want to go to work because i miss the freedom, and then there's the money, where i have to save at least 700$ in my new savings account (which i haven't gotten around yet) and then i have to return my saber that is a defect, i emailed Saberforge, he's not answering, probably on vacation. Then there Ultrasabers, i have to write a money order, i have a shit load of work to do, and that's where i lose my patience because i want to get it done in one night, (the saberforge thing and getting the ultrasabers)
When i get impatient, i get nervous, anxious and getting a little annoying, my parents know that, some of my other family members know that, i can't make anymore mistakes and i can't seemt to speak up for myself because i get to scared of the consequence of one's opinion. And if they say that People with Asperger's are highly intelligent, they why people aren't listening to my ideas to solve things, i you think of it for a minute maybe my ideas one day would create new ones that will change someone or something. The only thing i want is people to listen to what i have to say, sit down have some coffee, i'll get a cookie...we can chat, talk about the weather, then talk about each other, what desires we want when we grow up, our challenges. Our pros and our cons.
Take me for example i have some pros and cons that i have to share for people to understand.
Pros:
- I'm nice and friendly
- I respect people for who they are (mentally challenged, ADD, ADHD, Tourette's, Dyslexia, etc. )
- I can make people laugh (sometimes it doesn't work, i tend to over do it)
- I am good with Lego, (i love being creative)
- I can be imaginative, write short stories ( i love creepy horror stories)
- I am a capable person of helping others
- I love my home, and my family (sister included)
Here comes the cons, it makes me a little upset:
Cons:
- I impatient when there's to much to do
- I can be a jerk if people treat me like shit at school (I tend to have this hatred that makes me feel like i have no remorse over those who've hurted me.)
- I can be annoying (i ask ALOT of questions if i don't understand or if i'm getting over-anxious about something, i double-check even with things that i already know because i HAVE to make sure that i don't make mistakes.)
- I try to be independant, but i feel drained when i'm being yelled at by my parents (that doesn't allow me to speak up, because i feel like i'm on a table; tied down and a laser coming up to my crotch and unable to save myself because i'm too weak.)
- I tend to be sarcastic.............ALOT (In my life i took everything seriously when i first arrived at school in Fredericton, there's was many people that took advantage of me, since i was new, they made me believe things that are completely not rtrue, and that's half the story, since i gained that «Knowledge» I was surely humiliated, they mocked me for the things i did as a child (being depressed, and chewing my nails and have that look on my face like if i was in a creepy scary abandoned mansion,)
- I can be a real jerk and get to people's weak spots, (that is something i'm not proud of, i try to contain myself, lately i've been in no firery conversations or fights. I say it now that i can control and just walk away, but then when it happens, it gets more and more stranger how i just shoot my mouth. )
(End of the Pros and Cons list)
Anyways, the basis of this post is that i have to write this down, because i can't take the stress at home and just go and write it down where the stress is.
Today, i feel cheated, betrayed and lied too. Lately my family has been stressed, my grand-father and my grand-mother are both in the hospital, we left last week to visit both of them, it was sad, my grand-father is okay but not stable, the status of my grand-mother is currently unknown to me,
and lately, my family has been stressed because of that, i feel that i'm responsible for it, I was very upset like them. But i feel like it's all my fault.
I don't seem to well today......
Emotionally and Mentally
Tyler Mac
Patience is something that i have to earn, i basically have no patience anymore, i get tired of being promised something and have to wait t'il tomorrow and then there was some delay and then we have to wait t'il next week, (i won't give any examples because some people might be offended) i am a person that likes people to keep their promises, my parent's are not people that keep their promises, 47.776% of the time we change the whole promise into a little modification, like say, they promised us to go the trails, they promise and we shake hands on it, then they change the promise to their own appeal because they realise that it's just not what they want.
It's happened before in my household........many times, deal are broken, promises are not kept, even blackmailling was a big deal about several years ago. I don't think i can fully trust my parents, if i did, my little conscious would be nagging me telling; - Don' do this to yourself....»
And it goes the same way at school, i never lend any money to people, if they want a chocolate milk, i will buy them one, instead of giving the money to them TO buy the milk, that's how i work. Things that just piss me off, people and their lack of faith into one another.
I just wish my family would be like : - Yes i trust you that you won't crash the car while backing up into the garage EVEN THOUGH yo don't have a drivers license . » (done it once, it went great.) Sometimes, i'd rather be loaded up into work than be at home, it's sad....sometimes, i don't want people to feel THAT bad (LOL!!) I love working, it keeps me busy, and it makes me understand more and more everyday in the work force.
I'm glad i'm returning to work tomorrow, 4-9pm seems like a good shift, gets me away from misery and sometimes i don't want to go to work because i miss the freedom, and then there's the money, where i have to save at least 700$ in my new savings account (which i haven't gotten around yet) and then i have to return my saber that is a defect, i emailed Saberforge, he's not answering, probably on vacation. Then there Ultrasabers, i have to write a money order, i have a shit load of work to do, and that's where i lose my patience because i want to get it done in one night, (the saberforge thing and getting the ultrasabers)
When i get impatient, i get nervous, anxious and getting a little annoying, my parents know that, some of my other family members know that, i can't make anymore mistakes and i can't seemt to speak up for myself because i get to scared of the consequence of one's opinion. And if they say that People with Asperger's are highly intelligent, they why people aren't listening to my ideas to solve things, i you think of it for a minute maybe my ideas one day would create new ones that will change someone or something. The only thing i want is people to listen to what i have to say, sit down have some coffee, i'll get a cookie...we can chat, talk about the weather, then talk about each other, what desires we want when we grow up, our challenges. Our pros and our cons.
Take me for example i have some pros and cons that i have to share for people to understand.
Pros:
- I'm nice and friendly
- I respect people for who they are (mentally challenged, ADD, ADHD, Tourette's, Dyslexia, etc. )
- I can make people laugh (sometimes it doesn't work, i tend to over do it)
- I am good with Lego, (i love being creative)
- I can be imaginative, write short stories ( i love creepy horror stories)
- I am a capable person of helping others
- I love my home, and my family (sister included)
Here comes the cons, it makes me a little upset:
Cons:
- I impatient when there's to much to do
- I can be a jerk if people treat me like shit at school (I tend to have this hatred that makes me feel like i have no remorse over those who've hurted me.)
- I can be annoying (i ask ALOT of questions if i don't understand or if i'm getting over-anxious about something, i double-check even with things that i already know because i HAVE to make sure that i don't make mistakes.)
- I try to be independant, but i feel drained when i'm being yelled at by my parents (that doesn't allow me to speak up, because i feel like i'm on a table; tied down and a laser coming up to my crotch and unable to save myself because i'm too weak.)
- I tend to be sarcastic.............ALOT (In my life i took everything seriously when i first arrived at school in Fredericton, there's was many people that took advantage of me, since i was new, they made me believe things that are completely not rtrue, and that's half the story, since i gained that «Knowledge» I was surely humiliated, they mocked me for the things i did as a child (being depressed, and chewing my nails and have that look on my face like if i was in a creepy scary abandoned mansion,)
- I can be a real jerk and get to people's weak spots, (that is something i'm not proud of, i try to contain myself, lately i've been in no firery conversations or fights. I say it now that i can control and just walk away, but then when it happens, it gets more and more stranger how i just shoot my mouth. )
(End of the Pros and Cons list)
Anyways, the basis of this post is that i have to write this down, because i can't take the stress at home and just go and write it down where the stress is.
Today, i feel cheated, betrayed and lied too. Lately my family has been stressed, my grand-father and my grand-mother are both in the hospital, we left last week to visit both of them, it was sad, my grand-father is okay but not stable, the status of my grand-mother is currently unknown to me,
and lately, my family has been stressed because of that, i feel that i'm responsible for it, I was very upset like them. But i feel like it's all my fault.
I don't seem to well today......
Emotionally and Mentally
Tyler Mac
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Decisions, Decisions
Ok,
As i've said before, i love FX sabers, i've seen them in Bathurst, and i've seen a shitload of them in a comic store in Ottawa. That was my greatest desire: to have an fx saber, I've looked and drooled at the sites that offered them, PARSABERS, SABERFORGE, ULTRASABERS, you name e'm.
I've ordered the Regal, as i've said before, Now i've decided to get another one from Ultrasabers, it's another competitor of Saberforge and Parks, but i've decided to collect them and one day have a big gigantic saber battle, ( a childs fantasy and a dream i once had)
Let me get to the basics, i've made some heavy research (as all the research i do) On Ultrasabers, i will also compare it to Saberforge's sabers, quality and customer service (SO FAR)
Here we go:
Ultrasabers:
Info: A company that makes machined dueling sabers, like any other, (well most of them) they machined high strong aluminium and turn it into sabers that are bright like an angel that descends from the heavens down onto the earth. they offer two extra blade colors: Silver and Orange.
Difference from Saberforge: I see a mild difference between these two companies (i checked them on McAfee they are not scams, i might be wrong) To begin, they have more variety in products and accesories, (such as: battery holder for those who make they own blade, different types of blades : Fx dueling blades, Mid-Grade dueling blade and other.)
They have dozens and dozens of sabers, saber staffs, curved sabers, regular sabers, and they even can modify your own Hasbro Fx sabers to convert it into a dueling saber or you can buy a kit on how to make the conversion yourself. Unlike saberforge, when you order a saber from Ultra, they send you a retention screw that allows you to insert/remove the blade without any hassle, the sabers are made to duel with your friends (If they have an Ultrasabers or .........Saberforge) 8( and they are very affordable (the price ranges around 45.00$ to 200.00$)
Opinion: Like my declaration, i've decided to buy an armada of sabers, (bring them to school....joking.....halloween??....joking) and i'm goind to buy a "test" saber Here is the victim of my evil experiments: MOUAHAHA!!!! It's not the ONE exactly, i'm giving you what an ultrasaber looks like:
As i've said before, i love FX sabers, i've seen them in Bathurst, and i've seen a shitload of them in a comic store in Ottawa. That was my greatest desire: to have an fx saber, I've looked and drooled at the sites that offered them, PARSABERS, SABERFORGE, ULTRASABERS, you name e'm.
I've ordered the Regal, as i've said before, Now i've decided to get another one from Ultrasabers, it's another competitor of Saberforge and Parks, but i've decided to collect them and one day have a big gigantic saber battle, ( a childs fantasy and a dream i once had)
Let me get to the basics, i've made some heavy research (as all the research i do) On Ultrasabers, i will also compare it to Saberforge's sabers, quality and customer service (SO FAR)
Here we go:
Ultrasabers:
Info: A company that makes machined dueling sabers, like any other, (well most of them) they machined high strong aluminium and turn it into sabers that are bright like an angel that descends from the heavens down onto the earth. they offer two extra blade colors: Silver and Orange.
Difference from Saberforge: I see a mild difference between these two companies (i checked them on McAfee they are not scams, i might be wrong) To begin, they have more variety in products and accesories, (such as: battery holder for those who make they own blade, different types of blades : Fx dueling blades, Mid-Grade dueling blade and other.)
They have dozens and dozens of sabers, saber staffs, curved sabers, regular sabers, and they even can modify your own Hasbro Fx sabers to convert it into a dueling saber or you can buy a kit on how to make the conversion yourself. Unlike saberforge, when you order a saber from Ultra, they send you a retention screw that allows you to insert/remove the blade without any hassle, the sabers are made to duel with your friends (If they have an Ultrasabers or .........Saberforge) 8( and they are very affordable (the price ranges around 45.00$ to 200.00$)
Opinion: Like my declaration, i've decided to buy an armada of sabers, (bring them to school....joking.....halloween??....joking) and i'm goind to buy a "test" saber Here is the victim of my evil experiments: MOUAHAHA!!!! It's not the ONE exactly, i'm giving you what an ultrasaber looks like:
It looks simple, and you can see on the top of the opening of the hilt.................THERES A RETENTION SCREW WOW!!! THAT is what holds the blade tight, and i've emailed them to confirm if all of the sabers comes with a retention screw and they said yes. I am excited..........but wait!!
I need to start saving money, i gotta open a savings account, get my next paycheck and deposit on the savings and they...........well...maybe.......i'll be able to FUFILL my evil experiments, MOUAHAHA!!!!
Patience is what i need , i know i got a saberforge just a few days ago, but.......i am a collector, working or not (okay working is my best choice) I'm going to find my futur saber supplier and then i will enjoy them and then........beat the crap out of my sister with (EN GARDE!!)
Wish me luck joyfoul readers who are completely not related to me.
Tyler Mac
Something deceitful
I received my Saberforge custom LED saber March 29th, It was amazing design and craftmanship, it was smaller than the photo i saw on the web. The hilt was heavy alone without the blade, and as i looked through the package ti see if there was an Allen Wrench or a screw of some sort to attach the blade, there was none.
I was happy to have the saber yes, but it was a disapointement to see that there was no Allen Wrench to allow me to attach the blade into the hilt.........it sucks!! but i gotta suck it up , (somehow i don't feel like doing that)
i've made a little «Évaluation» of the saber
Design: 4/4: The design is unique,
Hilt Intergrity: 4/6: Everytime i shaked the hilt there was something moving in there, i don't think that was the intent of the designer
Acessories: 1/3: Nothing except the blade the kil key that allows the saber to be turned off while traveling in your car's trunk, and the hilt, and the shipping receipt, what?? no nice letter saying: Thank you for buying from Saberforge....NONONO!!! It might be because he was busy, but he's gotta at least have sympathy regarding me buying onw of his sabers.
Customer Services: 3/6: He seemed very polite, yet i think it be better off by NOT answering my emails with short little phrases such as a question like : - Dear Saberforge, i'm just wondering if i can get an update on my order that i placed last week..
Then he would just answer: - It shipped out last week......»
WHAT??? No detail when it would arrive??!! I gotta stop because the Customer Service is becoming more than a paraghraph.
Saber Brightness: 4/5: It was brighter than what i've seen previously on the web, on the videos they look like real lightsabers (that is what i thought until the guy on the video shows the saber on a table with the lights off and the blade lights would beam off the table and makes it look like the real Jedi Master Yoda with his bare claws.)
Extra Notes: I ordered a recharge port and rechargable battery pack, (NOTE: When i remove the kil key, there's a voice saying: - Sabersound Version One point O (O as in Oh GOD!!) and here's the funny part, i plug it in the battery charger it repeats half the words really fast and the battery charger plugged into the wall keeps flashing on and off, on and off,
I'll maybe post some photos of my saber.....
Thanks for reading
Tyler Mac
I was happy to have the saber yes, but it was a disapointement to see that there was no Allen Wrench to allow me to attach the blade into the hilt.........it sucks!! but i gotta suck it up , (somehow i don't feel like doing that)
i've made a little «Évaluation» of the saber
Design: 4/4: The design is unique,
Hilt Intergrity: 4/6: Everytime i shaked the hilt there was something moving in there, i don't think that was the intent of the designer
Acessories: 1/3: Nothing except the blade the kil key that allows the saber to be turned off while traveling in your car's trunk, and the hilt, and the shipping receipt, what?? no nice letter saying: Thank you for buying from Saberforge....NONONO!!! It might be because he was busy, but he's gotta at least have sympathy regarding me buying onw of his sabers.
Customer Services: 3/6: He seemed very polite, yet i think it be better off by NOT answering my emails with short little phrases such as a question like : - Dear Saberforge, i'm just wondering if i can get an update on my order that i placed last week..
Then he would just answer: - It shipped out last week......»
WHAT??? No detail when it would arrive??!! I gotta stop because the Customer Service is becoming more than a paraghraph.
Saber Brightness: 4/5: It was brighter than what i've seen previously on the web, on the videos they look like real lightsabers (that is what i thought until the guy on the video shows the saber on a table with the lights off and the blade lights would beam off the table and makes it look like the real Jedi Master Yoda with his bare claws.)
Extra Notes: I ordered a recharge port and rechargable battery pack, (NOTE: When i remove the kil key, there's a voice saying: - Sabersound Version One point O (O as in Oh GOD!!) and here's the funny part, i plug it in the battery charger it repeats half the words really fast and the battery charger plugged into the wall keeps flashing on and off, on and off,
I'll maybe post some photos of my saber.....
Thanks for reading
Tyler Mac
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